Melissa,

Thank you so much for your honesty and courage to share your sad thoughts with all of us. We would all be lying if we said that the the thought of your death hadn't crossed our minds. It sounds like you are getting a great deal of clarity, something that most of us don't get to do. I applaud you for venturing into unsettled waters to come face to face with your fears. It feels important to me that you know that your life is worth something, and that all you've done matters. Thank you for giving us the chance to face our fears too. You are amazing, brave and inspirational. I think in your next entry in the journal you might want to answer all the questions from this one. Like........What thoughts do you want to be rembered by? What flowers do you want at your grave? What memories are important to you? What is the reason you are going back to church? What do you believe? What lesson are you teaching all of us. Maybe, what do you want us to get? I love you so much, my heart is aching just thinking of all you are going through. Keep moving through it. T