Today is Tuesday 19, 2008 and I had a very busy day yesterday. I got home last night and all I was thinking about was my long day. Sometimes I wonder how can I keep doing this. When will this all end and will it ever end for me? I have been so stressed and emotional today. I have moments where I wanna just lay down and die .Or crawl in a hole and never come out.. I told my Mom its so different when it's happening to you.. If I was reading about someone I would have NO idea what they are feeling in the inside. At least they can go on with there day or go home from a long day and have a beer. NOT ME OF COURSE!!!! Im just very sad and very scared that things will get worse. I will again get bad news. I called one of my doctors today and told her I read up on the liver biospy and what if during the procedure they hit a lung or my gallbladder then I will have more problems...Just my luck... I tried to reschedule it so I could get out of it just one more week but they wont let me... So I will get up go to work for a couple of hours then go have it done.... Cant wait for my exciting day tomorrow THIS SUCKS

honeybee